You know that thing that you really meant to do, like cleaning out the pantry, starting an exercise program, or hmm…updating your blog? Sometimes best laid plans get delayed for weeks, and then months, and then before you know it, it has been over a year and you wonder if that thing that once ranked at the top of your priority list is really even all that important if you could let it go for this long without anyone (least of all you) batting much of an eye.
But after a whirlwind of a last year, I find myself still very much in need of an outlet, and if you are reading this, perhaps you need one too. Or you’re just bored. (If you’re in the second category, can you remind me what bored is like, so I can live vicariously through you?)
Here’s what I’ve been up to over the past 15 months (And if my title didn’t ring any bells with you, look up Turn! Turn! Turn! by the Byrds and you can hear what was stuck in my head while writing this. Although you may not like me much if it gets stuck in yours too.) :
Resigning my teaching position, thus fulfilling a long time dream of becoming a stay at home mom
Thank you hubs for working your magic to make that happen!
Decluttering/listing/showing/selling a home while still occupying said home with a husband, two toddlers, and a very hairy golden retriever
Insert all the crying face emojis.
Purchasing a new home
Renovating our new home
In reality, my primary role in that process was parenting a 1 and 3 year old alone while my rock star husband and his incredible family spent every spare second working on our house.
Moving in with my in-laws
Okay, so I wasn’t parenting entirely alone. And whatever that voodoo is my MIL uses to get her grandchildren to go to sleep should be bottled and sold.
Moving in with my parents
There is something so weird about moving back in with your parents after you have a family of your own. But it’s so sweet at the same time. I am so thankful for my parents, and so apologetic for their ruined furniture.
I think we did a good job of really cherishing our time with both of our families, made easier by the fact that we all knew it was temporary.
Finally moving into our new home, continuing to renovate
Realizing that being a real stay at home mom, without your mom or mother-in-law in the same house as you, is actually quite exhausting
I had no idea how long it would take me to adjust to my new role after working full time for the past 15(ish) years. There were a lot of moments in the beginning that I felt like a failure and that it shouldn’t be nearly as hard as I was making it. And don’t get me wrong, I still have my days. But I think that’s all it was- an adjustment period for all of us trying to figure out what our days were now supposed to look like.
But, while there is no lunch break or quiet time alone with your thoughts, the house is messier because we are here every day, and the budget is tighter on one income, I am 1,000 times happier and more in my element being here with my kids every day. While there is the occasional stirring for a purpose (or even time for a hobby) outside of being a wife and mother, for me it is a no brainer. As long as I am blessed enough to have the option to stay home, I will. It is fulfilling, challenging, rewarding, exhausting, and so much more than I ever dreamed. I’m so thankful I get to spend this season with my little ones, how ever long it may last.
Oh! And since all of that transition wasn’t enough, and we are at least 50 percent of the way through the house projects we wanted done by the end of this year, we decided to have another baby.
I’m 15 weeks and counting, and despite the fact that there is still a lot to do to get ready, I truly feel like it is exactly the right time to grow our family. We are all so excited and ready for January (which we are actually calling December, with my history of early deliveries).
So, to say the least, life looks quite different than it did at the time of my last post. I’m excited to share some of our home renovations with you, and anything else interesting in our day to day grind. To be honest, I don’t know what the blog will look like going forward, but it already feels good to be writing again.
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.”